This is what my house WAS going to look like. As of today I am like many in America ..... UNEMPLOYED! I am in shock! I am going to have my pitty- party. Then I'm going to get on the grind again. This is just a dream DEFERRED. I will own this!
I honestly never thought this day would happen. APPARENTLY IT'S NOT GOING TOO. I have dreamed about owning my own home ever since I got married in '95. BUT as a young couple starting out, with two babies and two sucky ass jobs it wasn't going to happen.
We have been renting for 12 yrs now, yeah I know =l LOOKS LIKE IT WILL BE A FEW MORE YEARS.
We have had a few opportunities to purchase mobile homes or modular homes and place it on the land we live on now but it never seemed to work out. Which was good because we have had some financial setbacks. Pregnancy, job loss, illness and lastly FEAR. All of these things have prevented us from moving forward. AND NOW MY CURRENT JOB LOSE IS PREVENTING US FROM MOVING FORWARD! SSHHHHEEEESH WE JUST CAN'T CATCH A BREAK!
You know my crazy behind is going to be posting pictures of the construction right? I'm straight scrap-booking this whole event. *** Speaking with a straight face*** PppppsSssT TASHA I'm gonna need your Circut ASAP!! GUESS YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT POSTAGE.
I will want to look back at it, I'm sure, because right now it's so hard to REALLY enjoy this process. Awe I'm kinda getting emotional y'all. THIS PART IS TRUE. RIGHT NOW IT IS TAKING EVERYTHING IN ME NOT TO JUST GIVE UP. I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN KICKED IN THE GUT! I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN THE DISAPPOINTMENT MY CHILDREN ARE FEELING AND LORD KNOWS THAT IS KILLING ME. WHICH IS WHY I WILL NOT GIVE UP. I MAY MISS THE TAX CREDIT BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I STILL CAN'T GET A HOUSE IT JUST MEANS I WILL HAVE TO WAIT A LITTLE WHILE LONGER.
Speak on it....
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